NuBearEull

Just making sure all of my accounts match. It was bound to happen eventually!

It was time to update that journal.

I'm actually doing a lot better. I thank you all for your kind words and good energy.

I am just now closing up and finishing the only commission on my plate, and am currently looking for more to do.

So if you are interested, I am currently open!

Thanks much!

Nuisance

I haven't been doing very well this winter, and one of the things that shuts down first when I feel down is my ability to communicate with others ... especially on social media of any kind. Then writing of any kind goes. Then art. Until I am left watching messages pile up and lose all interest in drawing anything for myself or others. It's a sort of funk or static. I can see myself in the thick of it but there is really no way out until it starts to clear on it's own. The best I have been able to do is lay low and feel guilty about it.

What energy I have I try to save for my daughter. She has to come first.

My first and biggest apologies need to go to Kelly-Clickspring and NoeticNoir. Both have gifted me beautiful art of my characters. I have looked at these pictures over and over. On some of my worst recent days, they have been used as a much-needed bright spot. Both are so beautiful and mean so much to me. But every time I go and try to comment, I stare at the little blank comment window and words stick. I want you BOTH to know how much I love these pictures. How, in a way, they were exactly what I needed. They are a gift of art and beyond. 

 by and   by
It is not my lack of love for your gifts and art that I haven't given them the attention they deserve. When my thoughts can find a place between chaos and silence, expect mini-novel comments.
Thank you both. I love them, and you, to little pieces.

My second apology has to go to all the people who wished me a happy birthday all those months ago. Yes, it really has been that long. Y'all were so sweet and kind to think of me. It *really* did mean something to me. Thank you all!

I will try to replace this with something more palatable in the near future. I am so sorry to everyone I have neglected. It's not fair to you.

Thank you for your patience,
NuisanceBear

For reasons they REFUSED to explain, I was fired this morning.

I largely suspect it has something to do with me having to take 1.5 days off when my kid was sick (double ear infections, pink eye, and the cold that started it all).

They didn't train consistently, and expected me to do the job of three people. So maybe I am better off ...

I probably don't want to work for a place that would make me choose between my job and my kid.

But still ... would have been nice.

As long as you guys have known me I have been unemployed. There have been a few short jobs here and there, but nothing substantial to speak of. 

I've moved a few times, got married, had a baby ... I like to think I've kept myself occupied.

But as of Monday the 4th, I will be gainfully employed in an 8am-4:30pm regular office job. I know many people here would describe that as torture, but it sounds like heaven to me. It's something to *DO* after long years of being useless. It's money coming in. Our household income will increase by 120% by the end of next month. And after years of budgets so tight they cut off circulation, it's an immense relief. 

The only downside will be putting my daughter in daycare for the first time. It's going to be pretty rough ... for me. She will probably have the time of her life. I think I'm pretty lucky to have had as much time with her as I have. I don't think I would have traded it for anything. But it's time to move on to the next chapter in our lives. 

This, of course, doesn't mean I'm done with art. It means I'm not trying to make a meager living from it. That was a pipe dream, and it's good to know that now. I can enjoy it as a hobby. It's will probably make things a bit easier by taking the pressure off. It can be what I do for fun now. (It does mean I am closing commissions in the near future. If there is something you *really* want, then you can always note me and we can see what we can do about it.)

I have finally come to the end of a long, agonizing, dry spell. I get to be a contributing member of society again!

Let's see how I feel *after* my first day!

Ha,
Nuisance

(P.S. My student loans have been paid off as well. That's nothing to sneeze at!)